終於可以透透氣了。昨天由坐計程車到機場到下飛機到達愛爾蘭我都睡著。睡到即使知道差點碰到鄰座的肩膀我也不理會。
這個學期一直都很疲倦，但到昨天我才真正明白自己是多麼的累。
發生了很多事情，不過現在渡假中，又卻是感覺到其實有些事情還不外如是。
我學懂了新的生存意義。如果我比起別人幸運，那麼我就需要向那些不幸的伸出援手。
現在想一想你自己是多麼幸福吧。醒覺吧，光是投訴是沒用的，要是不喜歡現況的話，就要努力爭取更好的。合上嘴巴繼續衝下去，直至得到想要的一天。
生日過得不錯，十八歲了。
不可以說謊。
失望是必有的，但假若有原因的話我會理解。我明白。我不會責怪，沒有這必要，也沒有如此的權利。
只是生日過得不怎完美罷了。
please don't even try to win me back or something when you've done something horrible to me. if it wasn't my birthday, if it wasn't my 18th birthday, i wouldn't be this mad. i didn't expect anything from you anyway. but hey you do it as a joke, do you think there's any way that i would actually laugh about it? no it's not even funny, it punched me hard.
i will tell myself that the text means nothing. i will convince myself that you're just going to say crap if i call you back. it's okay now, everything's clear and fine. you can be the twat you always are, i don't care. maybe i don't like you to that extent.
i am still worried, but i know even if i fall for this once again, you're just going to disappoint and hurt me again and again.
if i give you one more chance...
